My Painting

Joseph Conrad, an homage to the author & sailor

The color palette ranges from verdi gris to a deep crimson red. The painting is a visual depiction of the conscious to subconscious. At the top you can see a lighthose and its light shining out to sea. In it is the shore of the coastline and many ypes of sea animals. A whale, a porpoise, a large fish all place in the conscious mind of the author Joseph Conrad who left his native Poland to sail the seas of the world with the British Navy at the age of fifteen. As the journey into the uncoscious progresses you see the pylons that hold an empty pier, a bloodied harpoon that serves as a flagpole. Joseph continues to travel in the imagination of the painter Jesse Green a student of art & Graphic design at NCSU.

Hable con el Jefe esta noche antes de mi Work out. El queria verme y pues le ofreci cocinarle una cena Puertoriquena. El jefe puede usar una cena que le llene su barriga. No esta flaquitino pero necesita mas carne en dud huesos. Me senti mal interupir sus estudios pero me gusto escuchar su voz.

Scary

Friday had a chat with Brownie. Still Krazy but now takes responsibility for his nuttiness. Apology accepted and moved on. He wants to hang out maybe well go a shopping.

Met a Unique Soul on Wednesday

We had chatted prior to Wednesday but we finally managed the courage to talk in person. My life is brilliant and he's a unique soul. All I can say is wow to J. He is interesting, in his late 20's, a grad student, energetic, playful but best of all a great soul. He's masculine, sensitive and we cuddled until early Thursday morning. We had a frantic and energetic lovemaking session that truth be told surpassed anything i had in the last four years. Damn he's fluent in Spanish and kisses deeply and fully. Not i love but in serious like and lust right now for J.

Day of Peace

The boss has run away off to Charlotte, many safe travels. Then Jonesey is running off to CIAA, which is a big to-do here. Needless to say the Rican stays put and has to deal with the onslaught of people.

A Catsphicord

What a novel idea. Cats trapped in pens with their tails tightly fastened to a devise that delivers a sharp pinch to elicit their meows in a musical manner. Cruel perhaps... but amusing to no end that this was in fact a real instrument constructed in the 17th century to entertain an Italian Count. The cats were arrnaged by pitch and carefully selected for their response to pain. Tuesday night slept in early, delivered Black and Dani to the airport parked Black's car in front of my house. Then I Worked out from 5:45 AM until 7. Got showered, picked up a latte and at work by 7:20 AM. All because the boys needed to be at the airport by 4:45 AM. I will have to pick them up.

Black And Dank

The boys are off to Panama. They are not doing the full crossing and getting their Neptune Fest or whatever the hell you get when you go through the Panama Canal. It is good that they are both leaving town. No parents to watch over me. They really act like conscience 1 and 2. As for Melkat they have been quiet and now they seldom call me with their crazy ideas. As of last week I was officially in Mel's will to inherit her Rolex. I now that she'll certainly outlive me at this rate. I am calling out at Borders my leg hurts and I don't think 4 hours standing will suit me.

So enjoy the sojourn black & dank, I will be relaxing and drinking Caipirihnas at home.

ENTJ "I'm Sorry, But You Are Going To Have To Die!"

Profile: ENTJ
Revision: 3.0
Date of Revision: 27 Feb 2005


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"I don't care to sit by the window on an airplane. If I can't control it, why look?"
ENTJs have a natural tendency to marshall and direct. This may be expressed with the charm and finesse of a world leader or with the insensitivity of a cult leader. The ENTJ requires little encouragement to make a plan. One ENTJ put it this way... "I make these little plans that really don't have any importance to anyone else, and then feel compelled to carry them out." While "compelled" may not describe ENTJs as a group, nevertheless the bent to plan creatively and to make those plans reality is a common theme for NJ types.

ENTJs are often "larger than life" in describing their projects or proposals. This ability may be expressed as salesmanship, story-telling facility or stand-up comedy. In combination with the natural propensity for filibuster, our hero can make it very difficult for the customer to decline.

TRADEMARK: -- "I'm really sorry you have to die." (I realize this is an overstatement. However, most Fs and other gentle souls usually chuckle knowingly at this description.)

ENTJs are decisive. They see what needs to be done, and frequently assign roles to their fellows. Few other types can equal their ability to remain resolute in conflict, sending the valiant (and often leading the charge) into the mouth of hell. When challenged, the ENTJ may by reflex become argumentative. Alternatively (s)he may unleash an icy gaze that serves notice: the ENTJ is not one to be trifled with.

Functional Analysis

Extraverted Thinking
"Unequivocating" expresses the resoluteness of the ENTJ's dominant function. Clarity of convictions endows these Thinkers with a knack for debate, or wanting knack, a penchant for argument. The light and heat generated by Thinking at the helm can be impressive; perhaps even overwhelming. Experience teaches many ENTJs that restraint may often be the better part of valor, lest one find oneself victorious but alone.

Introverted iNtuition
The auxiliary function explores the blueprints of archetypal patterns and equips Thinking with a fresh, dynamic sense of how things work. Improvising on the fly is something many ENTJs do very well. As Thinking's subordinate, insights are of value only insofar as they further the Right, True Cause celebre. [n.b.: ENTJs are capable of living on a higher plane, if you will, and learning to value individuals even above their principles. The above dynamic suggests less individuation.]

Extraverted Sensing
Sensing reaches out to embrace that which physically touches it. ENTJs have an awareness of the real; of that which exists. By stilling the engines of Thinking and iNtuition, this type may experience the Here and Now, and know things not dreamt of nor even postulated in iNtuition's philosophy. Sensing's minor role, however, puts it at risk for distortion or extreme weakness beneath the hustle and bustle of the giants N and T.

Introverted Feeling
Feeling is romantic, as the ethereal as the inner world from whence it doth emerge. When it be awake, feeling evokes great passion that knows not nuance of proportion nor context. Perhaps these lesser functions inspire glorious recreational quests in worlds that never were, or may only ever be in fantasy. When overdone or taken too seriously, Fi turned outward often becomes maudlin or melodramatic. Feeling in this type appears most authentic when implied or expressed covertly in a firm handshake, accepting demeanor, or act of sacrifice thinly covered by excuses of lack of any personal interest in the relinquished item.

Famous ENTJs:
U.S. Presidents:
Franklin D. Roosevelt
Richard M. Nixon
Benny Goodman, "Big Band" leader
General Norman Schwarzkopf
Harrison Ford
Steve Martin
Whoopi Goldberg
Sigourney Weaver
Margaret Thatcher
Al Gore (U.S Vice President, 1993-2001)
Lamar Alexander (former governor, US Secretary of Education)
Les Aspen, former U.S. Secretary of Defense
Candace Bergen (Murphy Brown)
Dave Letterman
Newt Gingrich
Patrick Stewart (STNG: Jean Luc Picard)
Robert James Waller (author: The Bridges of Madison County)
Jim Carrey (Ace Ventura: Pet Detective, The Mask)
Steve Jobs
Penn Jillette

New Way to Greet the Day

When people ask me ho am I doing. I answer truthfully: "My life is Brilliant" "My soul is pure" This is such an extraordinary truth that represents how I, how I feel. It has been three years to the date that Stevo and I decided to pursue other amorous interest. The love just wasn't strong enough to take. Stevo told me at the begining of the journey that he was selfish and a brat... he proved this throughout our eight years together. Consistent little bugger he is. No regrets here, just more knowledgeable and less willing to stick out my neck for potential love. In fact, We wanted different things and in hindsight we were young and not quite resposible as we would like to claim.

I hope Izzy and Bibi learn that new love is ok just at times all-consuming and that the flames of passion ebb and subside after the years. It is only natural to look at them and be inspired by their brilliance and young love. The other two men in my life, The saw brothers are headed out to Panama on a cruise. They are not lovers but intended to be best friends. Thought, I believe one carries a torch of love for the other. Can't blame them they are a blessed pair.

I desire and want do not want for I have ben provided for in the last three years with luxuriant possibilities of Love and perhaps a succession of lovers. Then who am I to doubt if my Life is not Brilliant.

Worked out and then had dinner with Bibi and Izzy, came back home and slept with boy.

Dinner Plans

I had a lovely dinner with Brownie yesterday. I should have really caught the saw brothers but I was best in town in case of Snow. My art was delivered byt the artist. The painting now hangs modestly in my Grand Foyer. I will post a photo so you can enjoy Joseph Conrad. That is the name of the piece of Art I purchased it was pricey but it makes the room come to life.

One Foot At A Time

Crisis once again averted. The day started with a flurry of calls. Let me begin by going back to Saturday. I stayed home after some serious wandering around Raleigh with Izzy and Bibi. Then I got the call from Brownie, he was still employed but approaching his imminent demise in a simpler and rarer form. Now he's telling his clients the truth. I don't advise Lawyers and Landscape Architects to do this due to the intrinsic nature of their jobs. Lying is wrong but hey it is a duty as a lawyer not to spill the whole bag of beans as it is for Land Architects. All the work and little time to do anything ammounts to lies.

Funny enough Brownie said a co-worker couldn't stay past the early AM on saturday due to family time. A man who puts his job, ahead of anything and above all family is doomed to wander the earth eternal wondering how everything goes awry. I told Brownie to take the advise of that wise man and reserve Saturday for him and his loved ones. Brownie will have to deal.

Why?

Did not work out the way I planned. Instead of sleeping Black woke me up seeking for someone to lunch with. Being the regal ass I am I stayed in and decided to organize my sox. Later, I shopped around all day for toys for boy. My stomach has been aching and I have no desire to workout. Spoke with Brownie, he didn't jump. Alas, an imminent crisis averted. Slept in early, did not go to Black's. Need the time alone. I tried contacting the man from Durham to no avail, elusive and mercurial. That is me.

The pic is of a furry emaciated creature passing out diet drinks in NYC or....Nicole Richie for Diet Dr. Pepper.

Total Core Meltdown

Spoke with Brownie and he's losing it. This happened before in March 05. I tried making light of the situation but he is too far gone methinks. Last night chatted with Chili, then had to prep my report for Dr. Fields. I enjoy her sense of teamwork and get things done.

Great Singer

James Blunt - High Lyrics
Beautiful dawn - lights up the shore for me.
There is nothing else in the world,
I'd rather wake up and see (with you).
Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again.
Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night.
But now I'm high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn - melt with the stars again.
Do you remember the day when my journey began?
Will you remember the end (of time)?
Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you,
Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

Hard on the Olympics

Interesting opening statement. I love the Winter Olympics but what is up with the giant penis??

Almost 40

No love this year so here's to the lovers take heart that when you are lonely there is no small start. All you desire is someone who loves and cares for you. This day makes the lonely feel lonelier and less filled with joy. I pour my heart out to you and see what has happened, I have left it out and exposed for you to see.

You Are 27 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Hook up and met a nice bloke. We had fun. Played around a bit then alas, he was gone.

Science for Dummies

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 6/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

Stupid Crappy Crap Test

You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

I knew this all along

You Are Miss Piggy

A total princess and diva, you're totally in charge - even if people don't know it. You want to be loved, adored, and worshiped. And you won't settle for anything less. You're going to be a total star, and you won't let any of the "little people" get in your way. Just remember, piggy, never eat more than you can lift!

The Muppet Personality Test

When I was twelve my mom by mistake ordered from Spiegel's the Miss Piggy Muppet instead of the Kermit. On Christmas day to her horror instead of being upset about it and not wanting to play with my new doll, I proceeded to style the pigs long blond curls and to speak in her voice. My mom soon thereafter swipped the doll and threw it away.

James (Blount) Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

HUNGMAN

You Are The Hanging Man

You represent the seeking of enlightenment and spiritual clarity. You tend to confuse others, but your oddities seem deeply satisfying. Self sacrifice is easy for you, especially if it makes you a better person in the end. You are the type of person who is very in touch with your soul and inner spirit. Your fortune: Right now is a good time for reflection and meditation. You should stop resisting the problems in your life, and let yourself be vulnerable to them. You may need to sacrifice something important to you to move ahead in your life. Accept your destiny with courage, and learn to let go of what you think you need.

What Tarot Card Are You?

PIKACHOO

Who Should Paint You: Pablo Picasso

Your an expressive soul who shows many emotions, with many subtleties Only a master painter could represent your glorious contradictions

What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait?

Wave Old Glory

You Passed the US Citizenship Test

Congratulations - you got 10 out of 10 correct!

Could You Pass the US Citizenship Test?

Martini Anyone?

You Are A Blueberry Martini

You are a eclectic drink - liking to change drinks and venues often. You are usually the first of your friends to find a cool new dive bar or cocktail. You should never: Drink mystery drinks strangers hand you. Unless you want to wind up in foreign country. Your ideal party: Is mobile, hopping from party to party. Your drinking soulmates: Those with an Orange Martini personality. Your drinking rivals: Those with a Chocolate Martini personality.

What Flavor Martini Are You?

KumSom yungman

You Are Chinese Food

Exotic yet ordinary. People think they've had enough of you, but they're back for more in an hour.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Warrior Monkey King

You Are a Warrior Soul

You're a strong person and sometimes seen as intimidating. You don't give up. You're committed and brave. Truly adventuresome, you are not afraid of going to battle. Extremely protective of loved ones, you root for the underdog. You are picky about details and rigorous in your methods. You also value honesty and fairness a great deal. You can be outspoken, intimidating, headstrong, and demanding. You're a hardliner who demands the best from themselves and others. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Boy still on punishment for wrecking one of my planters. For a small dog he can insure you of a large ammount of chaos. I keep telling Izzy if you leave him loose without supervision don't be surprised of what he can do. JR's are too curious and too smart. sent another pic to Jeff of the Saw Brothers. A cute referrence to the buzzing sound all three of us made when sleeping. The snorin in that hotel room was only supersceded by the sound of the alarm clock. The morning after our first evening sharing a room we joked and called each other Buzzsaws and since Our snore were distinctly disturbing we compared them to power saws of different qualities.

Moi

Your World View

You are a happy, well-balanced person who likes people and is liked by others. You question whether many conventional views on morality are valid under all circumstances. You are essentially a content person. Sometimes, you consider yourself a little superior. You are moral by your own standards. You believe that morality is what best suits the occasion.

What Is Your World View?

Fun quiz! Up last nigh Chatted with Jeff after Borders and working out. Nice guy. Intelligent and mozo! Staying in tonight, doing the spa thing! Clipping my claws and trimming the fur. Not really! Watching Battlestar. Billy has sorta moved in. Izzy is gloriously happy. Went to the dentist, as always nothing to report, teeth as strong as a horses. Got to work Borders mid shift, will be able to dine a la maison du Blackwell. Going to church on sunday. Going to find MY Personal Jesus.

I'm with Stupid!

Your IQ Is 135

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Quiet evening went to Borders did work. Went to Chili's last night no action, I guess not in the mood. Alright player get your game on. Chili behaved crackish, went home. Got online chated for 30 minutes. Watched Boy, the evil wonderdog destroy one of my planters. The funny thing is that he knew he was doing wrong but he still did it. Bad Dog I say. He is now being punished, minimal affection or praise until he stops being destructive. He destroyed his Christmas gifts from Rog. Chatted up a nice guy Jef. Fluent in spanish, anglo, great smile.

A New Month A New Post

Ran into Brownie at Borders on Monday night. He seems frazzled and spent said he has nothing to give. I do know he means emotionally or spiritually. Tired of the rat race he's given it up. The trying, the pretense of a civilized human. I offered a helping hand. As always his laundry spins out of control. A methaphor for the chaotic mental innards of a man in despair.

We talked about James Frey and I apologized 2 months ago he asked me if it was fiction. I researched the book A Million Little Pieces and found it was self recovery. He found the book powerful and a good read. Now two months after we find out that Frey was fried on Oprah and his book is a fictional account of his life.

Joined Capital fitness a veritable meat warehouse not interested in the wares more there for the fitness.

Asked if he wanted to do dinner on wednesday he said perhaps. I am not worried nor losing sleep. Brownie has his demons and I have a life to live. He called me back and said we could do dinner. Went to Moe's acted schizo, then told me that his arresting officer was there . Moved to Capitol Cafe had grilled cheese and tomato soup. Comfort food. Did not discuss much Brownie was distracted and asked that I do nothing for his Birthday. Sad indeed.